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What makes a girl betrays her boyfriend without any guilt feeling?
Okay we've broke up, and I could accept it. I really could.
But don't she ever think of me sometimes?  I mean at least felt little sorry or guilty?
After all these happened.
Why can she act like there were nothing happened and she did nothing to me.
How much courage for a girl needed to leave her bf? 3 and half years.
Well I knew that she got no feeling on me since before we've broke up,
And there were full of lies from her had revealed after broke up.
I can still accepted it also.
But sometimes I felt that she were like pretending that she is the one who had been abandoned.
Then at the time she stayed low, and yet I was looked like the one who had betraying.
She is smart.

It was just like I am the one who got new target and decided to break up.
Damn it...I don't like this kind of feeling, but I don't mind if people misunderstood about me,
because I am a guy, that's nothing to lose if people think that I am kinda playboy or what.
Even my mum also thought that I am the badass before I got chance to explain.
Playboy, it's okay what, not a big deal for me.
What I am caring is some people might thought that my current gf is the 第三者,
THAT IS UNFAIR for her.
Other than that, be with her I've save lot of money compared to before.
Someone said she is gonna loves my money instead of me,
and I will spend a lot for buying her tons of branded stuffs.
OPS, you are so damn wrong.

For your information...
Soon after me n my ex broke up. I got in relationship with my current gf.
I knew it were all happened too sudden, some of the people got shocked.
People think that I am just playing with my current gf or I wanna use my current gf to piss my ex off.
People were like denied me because of that.
But I can promise all of you that, seriously, I love her.
Both of us had broke up with our ex with similar stories.
I couldn't say that we are the victim in those sad stories,
but I could confirm that we were the one who had been hurt. DEEPLY.
Because we are the one who really "loved" before.

Please don't judge me. You all don't even know what I am thinking, what I have been through.
Just give me some time, I will gonna show you guys I am not the one who you think I am.

嗯
也许我看起来很轻浮 可是只要我有了女朋友
我会用我最好的来对待她
以前或现在我都一样
就算遇到让我心动的女孩子 我都会告诉我自己我已经有女朋友了
我有自己的底线 我知道我在做什么 我知道什么是对或错
我办得到 真的 因为我觉得东西要就做到最好 不然就不要做 我的原则
我爱我的女朋友 我就要爱到底
我是任真的
就连以前的事情 我都还在慢慢让自己fade out.
只是有时偶尔还会emo一下 因为我是真的爱过 我不是她

一次打击后 我再一次复活 这次我更了解“爱”
什么是我需要的 什么是值得我爱的 什么是我真正喜欢 爱的

也许，我明白了。

长大了 :)

PS: I know it's gonna ruins my ex reputation, so I never really mentioned that before. I am sorry bout that.
But as long as she got her current bf I think that's nothing much for her. I guess?
And now I am caring is what people think of my current gf. Just try to protect her.

吃面包 Charlotte

2012, I am not going to say happy new year here,

because this is not a really HAPPY new year for me, myself.

Was broke with her; But seriously, I didn't blame her, but myself.

I was so suck and sohai, I thought that I was too much perfect for her.

I thought that being a nice boyfriend is like gift her anything she wanted.

I thought that being a nice boyfriend is like fetch her to school.

I thought that being a nice boyfriend is like take good care of her.

But I was so damn wrong. I had never thought like what she thought and her feeling.

I was a bad temper guy; every time after quarreling, she will be the one who apologizes no matter who faults.

I never cherish the time that spent with her, because I thought that is 理所当然...

I never thought that she would be really leaving one day.

Time flies, 3 and half years; 

I have to said that; we were more like sibling instead of couple when we started to live together at Cyberjaya.

The passion is not there anymore, for both of us. We didn't ever cherished each other.

She was like my lil sis, I have to take good care of her, 

Every single little things of hers, even winning a Tettris battle for her so that she can talks nonsense in front of her friends...how silly she were. 

It was more like a responsibility, boundaries for me. And for her, she used to take care of my daily life also.

I have to admit that I am a lazy guy, so she used to help me do all the housework, pity her.

Thanks for everything. Char lo tte.

Our thing ends up like this, I don't even know we can get back to each other or not.

And I really never blame on you and you also no need to blame on yourself. 

Even though I was cursing you at first, but girl you know I never meant it.
Which kind of guy I am, you knew it. 

I knew you were born without brain, that's why you sohai sohai a bit; And that's why I am so into you.

You will need many "directors" in your life, but not that 2 bitches who had sent you and me to Holland. 

Get rid of them.

You should knew who are really good for you right, 20th already.

I could forgive everything, but not 2 of them. I knew them really long time, never owed them, sometimes help them some more. I really couldn't find myself a single reason to forgive them.
They will get what they deserved. 

But the most important thing is please promise me be more clever and 醒目 a bit. 凡事不要太计较.

Don't ever let yourself 吃亏, and don't easily believe people other than Pontianese.
And, Fake Korean not nice, We called it Palia. o0o :)
Hope that you could find a real Korean boy soon.
Life goes on and on. 加油！




One Day.